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Tuesday, October 26, 2010

CHAPTER SEVEN OF MY ONGOING AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL SHORT STORIES

LIFE AT JESSE LEE HOME


Jesse Lee Home, in the late 1940's and early '50's, was a Methodist church sponsored home for Alaskan native orphan children: Eskimos, Aleuts, Tlinket Indians, and so on. It was located several miles outside the town of Seward, Alaska. Seward, in those days, was a very small town known for its port - it serviced container ships from Seattle and other "South 48" ports - and was the southern terminus of the Alaska Railroad's Seward-Anchorage-Fairbanks trans-Alaska rail line. Seward sits on a tiny lip of flat ground between the mountains of the Kenai Fjords National Park and Resurrection Bay.

The bay was extremely deep, as are most bodies of water that butt against mountains, and therefore served well as a port. The highway from Anchorage, known appropriately as the Seward Highway, ran through several mountain passes on its way south, and as it approached its southern terminus it skirted the end of the bay before turning and heading along the narrow spit of land on which the town was built. At the point at which it turned, another smaller road headed away from town. This small road lead directly to Jesse Lee Home.

Named for an early Methodist missionary to the indigenous peoples of this northern territory, the complex itself occupied many acres, including a headmaster's house that sat facing the mountains, three large buildings, aligned in a straight row perpendicular to the mountains and connected by long hallways, several farm buildings, sheds, a barn and so on. The Home was as self-sufficient as possible, with a large vegetable garden and the normal edible farm animals - pigs, chicken, beef - that were for the Home's use as well as for sale in Seward.

Of the three main buildings, the two outer ones served as the dormitories: boys in the dorm closest to the mountain, and girls in the one farthest away. The center building housed the dining room and kitchen. Each building had its own heating plant, and the two dorms each had their own resident houseparents. The Home and all its surrounding farm buildings wore camouflage paint that had been applied in the early days of World War II when the Alaska Army Command feared attack by Japanese carrier-based aircraft. The camouflage was painted all over the exterior walls and roofs to look like pine trees and grass, just like the mountains to which the Home was immediately adjacent.

When I was perhaps eight, in 1949, my parents were active in the Methodist church and accepted positions as houseparents in the boys' dorm of the Home. Our family moved from Anchorage to Seward, and my two older brothers and I lived with the other boys at the Home. Only my oldest brother, Skip, then eighteen and too old to be a "boy" at the dorm, was exempt from dorm life. My next older brother, Dick, was fifteen and lived as an "A" boy. The brother next to me, Ernie, was eleven and was with the "B" boys. At my age, I was a "C" boy. Younger, preschool, children were not classified as such, and were lumped statistically and grouped physically together as "infants".

Although our parents were the dorm parents, we lived in the dorms just like the orphan boys, ate at the Home dining room with all the resident boys and girls, rode to church every Sunday in the Home's yellow school buses and did all the chores done by the other boys in the dorms. I was unaware of any resentment towards me by the other "C" boys (if it existed at all), and was accepted as one of them from the very beginning.

Over the course of the couple years we lived there several incidents made such an impression that I shall never forget them.

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A group of us children - "C" boys and girls mostly - were playing out near Walter, the bull. We were not supposed to be near the bull because we would taunt him and he “may break through the fence” and harm us. Or so we are told by the older "B" boys. But here we were. And we heard the bell ringing us in for lunch. We had barely minutes to get into the dormitories, wash our hands, and line up for the march down the long hallway to the dining room: girls marching in from the one side and boys marching in from the other. Of course, the girls' side is the closest to the bull, so we boys must run all the faster to be on time for lunch.

I was a fast runner. Faster than any other boy, and certainly faster than all the girls. As I streaked towards the dormitory's back door I went across, and not around, the kitchen's underground boiler room. The room's roof rises above ground by only inches so it's an easy step up for a young boy who is the home's fastest "C" boy! The boiler's one-inch galvanized steel relief pipe sticks straight up from the center of the roof, and at about forty inches above the rooftop it turns at a ninety degree angle and goes through the kitchen wall seven or eight feet away.

Speeding across the roof I turned to look over my shoulder at the other children - smug in my leading position - and turned back around just in time to SMACK! into the pipe with my upper lip.

BAM! THUMP! Out cold!

Of course I spent a couple of days in bed in the dormitory houseparent's room while my lip healed. And was treated ever so kindly for my injury.

And no one ever asked why I was running from the bull's pen.

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Behind the Home, far behind the farm area, past the deep woods that lay along the base of the mountain, and certainly far beyond the Home's property fence that marked the limit of our freedom, we boys found a special play area. For partway up the mountainside, possibly three or four thousand feet up, was a rock slide perhaps a thousand feet long. Known to all of us as "Devil's Slide", this area was visible only from the corner windows of the "A" boy's dorm. And since it was so obscure we boys, and some of the braver girls, could sneak up there and play without being seen.

I cannot say why it was called Devil's Slide, and whether this is its actual name or is only what we at the Home called it. For all I know it may have been named for the abundant Devil's Club that grew about the area. But it was the devil to reach and was a devil of a slide, this much I knew for certain!

The mountains on the peninsula were covered with tall pine and Sitka spruce trees that grew up the steep mountainsides to about four thousand feet. Above the tree line was rock and some hardy shrubbery. But the ground cover on the mountainside below the tree line was a jungle of fireweed mixed with skunk cabbage and a particular broadleaf briar bush, the Devil's Club. Climbing through this took courage and tough skin; the briars grew well over the heads of us smaller boys, and both the Devil's Club and skunk cabbage had thorns, thistles and prickly burrs that were sharp as needles and just as long. It was torturous climbing in forbidden territory.

And that made it all the more alluring.

On many occasions a group of us "C" boys would accompany some of the "B" boys in a climb up Devil's Slide. Most of us just enjoyed the thrill of climbing where were knew we weren't supposed to. But one day one of the older boys decided to climb to the top of the Slide, then slide down. The rest of us dug our feet into the loose shale and watched him slowly climb on all fours, like a human goat, up the rocky, nearly vertical, slide. Several times he would slip, sending sharp rock fragments raining down on those of us below him. But finally he reached the top of the Slide; he was so far above us we could hardly see him. Looking up at him made me dizzy.

Then, with a confident wave, he started to slide. He slid feet first, body tilted back, almost sitting down in the rough rock. But he quickly gained too much speed: The loose shale was creating a small avalanche that was taking him with it. He tried to dig his elbows and hands in, along with his feet, to slow his descent. But to no avail. He, and the shale, were sliding quickly down the steep mountainside.

The Slide area had some small clumps of shrubbery and an occasional large boulder sticking out, and he tried to guide himself into these rocks or bushes. But alas, he could not control his path, and continued his erratic course down the stony slope.

In desperation he tried turning onto his stomach, but in doing so he completely lost control and began tumbling. We watched in horror as he rolled and thrashed towards us. Scared as we were - both for him and for our own hides when we got back to the Home and had to tell what happened - we scrambled up the rocks as he had done just minutes before. We managed to dodge the falling stones and grab onto his clothing as he tumbled past.

He was filthy, cut, and bruised; his clothing was ripped and torn; he had lost one shoe; blood and tears covered his face.

We helped him the rest of the way down the Slide and into the woods. By now we were all crying - for him and for us! Too soon we emerged from the trees and started across the farm area towards the dorm. We wanted this trip to never end, because we all knew what that would mean.

But we didn't have to wait for the trip to end - for coming across the farmyard were several of the "A" boys who had seen our friend's tumble down the slide, and the dorm houseparents: My parents! If there were a God he would have granted my wish for a lightning bolt at that moment, but it didn't happen. Instead, I, and all the other boys, were given a good switching across our butts with one of those long alder branches that snaps at the end like a whip. I said all the other boys: the "B" boy who was all banged up from the fall got the switching too. Then, as the rest of us were running back to the dorm, trying to stifle our sobs so the other children would not see us crying, my father picked up the bruised "B" boy and carried him back to the dorm.

I don't know about any of the other children in the group that day, but I know that I, for one, never ventured back to Devil's Slide.

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I do not remember the first time I went up to the old sawmill: It must have been early in my stay at the Home. But it soon became one of my favorite playgrounds.

Old and run down even then, the sawmill was quite some hike up an overgrown trail perhaps a half mile from the boys' dorm. The trail had been a road when the mill was in operation, but now it had small spruce growing in it, and thousands - millions - of the omnipresent Devil's Club briar bushes and skunk cabbage.

While I always called this particular plant "skunk cabbage", I do not know what its actual name is. As I recall, it was broad leafed and had a thick, round tubular stalk. The stalk had very long, very fine needles sticking out. They were almost invisible they were so thin; but they stuck and pricked like sewing needles. The stalk, when broken, gave off a strong, pungent smell that was repulsive, yet somehow pleasant.

To us young boys, the smell was reminiscent of the wet toe jam one would find between his toes after a hard day at play: Repulsive, yet somehow pleasant.

The mill was surrounded by very dense brush and trees. Its main building was wooden and nearly rotted. But next to it was the ultimate toy for small Jesse Lee Homers: Sitting on a rusted steel framework was a long conveyer belt. The low end sat up about two feet, and the high end faced down the mountainside and was most likely twenty-five or thirty feet above ground. At its end was a huge pile of sawdust. The top of the sawdust pile was perhaps ten feet below the end of the belt. We boys would walk out the length of the belt, then jump down into the soft shavings and tumble down to the ground. Then, just like other children would do on a school slide, we would scramble up the hill, climb onto the belt and do it all over again.

The sawmill, with its damp, piquant smell of skunk cabbage, was my favorite area all during my stay at Jesse Lee Home.

I don't miss the life there, nor do I frankly remember all that much about it.

But I cannot forget the smell and the good times I had playing at the old sawmill.

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Being fully self sufficient, as it was, Jesse Lee Home afforded the residents with the opportunity to learn many skills to which they would not have, otherwise, had exposure. All the children, regardless of age or sex (and to which I most likely must now add race, religion or national origin) were required to do various chores around the Home. These included weekly cleanup, daily farm chores, periodic laundry and so on.

We "C" boys and girls were not too involved in farm duties and, in fact, were prohibited from being around most of the farm equipment and machinery. While we would have enjoyed nothing more than playing all day long on these contrivances there was justifiable fear that we would seriously injure ourselves. And the Home had the obligation to keep us healthy in body as well as in mind and spirit.

Cleaning equipment, however, was a different story. Every Saturday morning, after breakfast, the routine was the same: Read the posted cleaning assignment list outside the dorm door, grab your cleaning tool and get to work. We smaller boys usually had to dust with brushes and rags; older boys would sweep and damp mop; the oldest boys ran the electric buffer on the Army-green linoleum floors. All three groups had some share of the bathroom cleanup details, too. And with a large number of children working as quickly as possible on the cleaning it never took too long until we were done and on our way outside to play.

For the older boys and girls, the large laundry tubs and clothes dryers housed in an old shed out near the farm area were anything but playthings. Laundry was done frequently, and always under the watchful eye of one of the dorm houseparents. The washing was done by hand in any number of deep sinks, then placed in one of the two immense dryers.

The dryers had been made by Mr. McKinley, the Home's engineering superintendent. Each drum had a diameter at least as large as I was tall, and was easily five feet long. They were made of wooden slats that were spaced an inch or so apart so the air could circulate but the clothes would not fall out. In the middle was a latched door that could be opened for the loading and retrieval of the clothing. A gasoline motor was attached to each dryer by means of a rubber belt and, by use of gear reduction, the drums turned ever so slowly even with the motors running at full speed.

There were times, though, when the dryers needed to be turned without the motors. For those occasions each dryer also had attached a huge crank. We smaller children were never allowed near the dryers when they were in operation because the cranks always turned with the dryers, and we could easily be conked on the head as the crank turned. In fact, we were not even supposed to be in the laundry sheds at all, at any time. This was not a play area and the "C" children were not involved in the laundry work.

But this didn't stop us young children from sneaking into the shed when no one else was around and playing in the dryers. What more fun could there be for a seven or eight year old than to clamber through the loading door into the huge chamber, have a playmate close the latch, then tumble inside while several of the children turned the crank! As the drum turned we would lie flat on the slats and be carried partway up the circle until gravity pulled us down and we would tumble down the side, to be carried back up again as the drum continued turning.

Did we ever think that we might get hurt inside the dryer? Of course not! And some of the braver boys shouted for the cranking crew to turn the crank as fast as possible. Inside the drum the boy would tumble head over heels, laughing and squealing the whole time. How we loved our secret play area. And how we would have been switched with those unforgettable alder branches had the houseparents ever found out where we played so much!

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Most of the children at the Home were orphans. They came from all around Alaska; their hometowns were the forgettable names of fishing villages in Southeastern Alaska, or Eskimo villages on the slopes of the Brooks Range, or the Aleut villages along the Aleutian Islands. Who can now remember them all? But the children, while having a materially better life at the Home than they could have ever had in their own villages, were social misfits in Seward, and many of the older boys, in particular, could not bear to grow up away from their clans, their families, and their customs.

Many of them ran away.

I remember one Sunday after we had all returned to the Home in the rickety old yellow buses with "Jesse Lee Children's Home" painted in black on the sides and back door, one of the Aleut "A" boys was reported missing from his table at lunch.

Customarily we would go directly from the buses to our dorms, leave our Sunday School papers on our beds, wash our hands and line up for the walk down the long hallway to the dining hall. We each had an assigned seat: The boys sat on the side of the room nearest their hallway and the girls on the other. The service area was in the center, and that is where the staff tables were set up. They could easily see the whole dining area and take corrective action whenever one of their charges committed a breach of table etiquette.

This "A" boy didn't go to the dorm, and wasn't at his seat at lunch. After a quick search of the buildings, the male members of the staff - my father; Mr. McKinley; some of the other adult men; and several of the other "A" boys, plus my two older brothers - armed themselves with rifles, and set out to track him down. The rifles, we were always told, were in case the group encountered any black bear or moose along the way.

There was only one way off the peninsula: Follow the highway and railroad tracks through the mountain passes towards Anchorage. Many of the boys that ran away tried to hitch rides along the highway, and some were successful. Others would lie in wait alongside the tracks for a slow moving freight train to pass by. They would then jump aboard and head for freedom.

After the men left, none of us younger children could finish eating, we were so excited. Despite the frequency of its occurrence, a runaway was still cause for great excitement and consternation at the Home: excitement amongst the children and consternation amongst the houseparents.

Later that evening the men returned with the "A" boy, handcuffed and walking with his head down, held firmly by two of them.

I do not know what happened to him, or to any of the others that ran away. I only know that they felt they were imprisoned at Jesse Lee Home, and their talk was constantly of their escape and eventual return to their own kind.

I hope they all made it.



(Not my photos.) Seward, sitting on Resurrection Bay, with Jesse Lee Home to the right.



(Not my photo) Winter at Jesse Lee Home. These look like "C: boys - about the same age I was when at the Home.

(Not my photo) The Home as it now sits. The camoflauge has been whitewashed and it sits abandoned.
I have heard, via the Home's Facebook page, that a group of local Alaskan investors is seeking to
purchase the property and turn it into a museum. The group is led by a woman with ties to Jesse Lee.

(Not my photo) The Home as it looked in its prime. Note Devil’s Slide just to the right of center.

(Not my photo) The Home’s Balto Building, which served as the girls' dormitory.

(Not my photo) Scouts at Jesse Lee. Virtually all the children were Alaskan Natives, as evidenced here.


(Not my photo) "B" boys at Jewel Guard hall.

(Not my photo) Children playing inside a hallway at the Home.


(Not my photo) Flag raising on July 4th, 1950.

(Not my photo) Girl Scouts at the Home. Again, note the predominant ethnicity.


(Not my photo) Girls with a Home bus.

(This and many of the other Home photos are from the Seward Community Library Association files.)


This is the Home staff, date unknown. Could be my mother on the far left, back row, with glasses. The Superintendent is far right in black jacket, white shirt and tie; his wife is far right, second row in the dark dress. Since my father is not shown, I'm guessing it was he who took the photo.
(Not my photo) Seward Methodist Church where all the Home’s residents attended.
 Our Ford 'woody' station wagon is in front.

(Not my photo) Our family’s ’47 Ford Woody station wagon at Jewel Guard, the boy’s dorm.

(Not my photo) Goode Hall.

(Not my photo) Infants being fed at Goode Hall.

(Not my photo) Children eating at Goode Hall.


(Not my photo) The Home's kitchen staff. Some of the older "A" girls worked there for a small stipend.






Tuesday, October 19, 2010

THE GIST OF DR. SAM HARRIS'S NEW BOOK: THE MORAL LANDSCAPE

I have highlighted a number of passages throughout his newest book: here I will try to capture the gist of the book by quoting some of the hightlighted passages. Note, however, that this may not capture the whole essence of his argument, nor provide complete justification for his thesis - all of which is available in the complete text itself.  (And I take full responsibility for all typos, misspellings and other glitches in the following text; the book reads correctly in all instances.)

His book takes to task the (general) assumption that all ideas of morality are God-based (or God-given, if you prefer).  His thesis, then, is the reverse of this: i.e., that ideas of morality can be reached through scientific methods, leaving any and all concepts of "God" out of the equation.

" .... our inability to answer a question says nothing about whether the question itself has an answer."

" ....morality should be considered an undeveloped branch of science."

" ... in any domain of knowledge, we are free to say that certain opinions do not count. In fact, we must say this for knowledge or expertise to count at all."

"My claim is that there are right and wrong answers to moral questions, just as there are right and wrong answers to questions of physics, and such answers may one day fall within reach of maturing sciences of mind."

" .... science can help us find a path leading away from the lowest depths of misery and toward the heights of happiness for the greatest number of people."  [Of course, he's speaking of all nations; the 6.7 billion of us on the planet.]

"Science simply represents our best effot to understand what is going on in this universe, and the boundary between it and the rest of rational thought cannot always be drawn. .... to think scientifically - ideas about cause and effect, respect for evidence and logical conherence, a dash of curiosity and intellectual honesty, the inclination to make falsifiable predictions, etc. - ...."

"Clearly, we can make true or false claims about human (and animal) subjectivity, and we can often evaluate these claims without having access to the facts in quesiton. This is a perfectly reasonable, scientific, and often necessary thing to do."

" .... truth has nothing, in principle, to do with consensus: one person can be right, and everyone else can be wrong."

"How have we convinced ourselves that, on the most important questions in human life, all views must count equally? Consider the Catholic Church: ... the Vatican is an organization that excommunicates women for attempting to become priests but does not excommunicate male priests for raping children." [emphasis added.]

"The moment we admit that we know anything about human well-being scientifically, we must admit that certain individuals or cultures can be absolutely wrong about it.  Moral relativism is clearly an attempt to pay intellectual reparations for the crimes of Western colonialism, ethnocentrism, and racism. .... the most basic facts about human flourishing must transcend culture, just as most other facts do."

 " .... the fact that millions of people use the term "morality" as a synonym for religious dogmatism, racism, sexism, or other failures of insight and compassion should not oblige us to merely accept their terminology until the end of time."

" .... there is a difference between answers in practice and answers in principle."

" .... it seems profoundly unlikely that our universe has been designed to reward individual primates for killing one another while believing in the divine origin of a specific book.  Because most religions conceive of morality as a matter of being obedient to the word of God, .... their precepts often have nothing do with maximizing well-being in this world. Religious believers can, therefore, assert the immorality of contraception, masturbation, homosexuality, etc., without ever feeling obliged to argue that these practices actually cause suffering.  They can also pursue aims that are flagrantly immoral, in that they needlessly perpetuate human misery, while believing that these actions are morally obligatory."

" .... certain moral questions could be difficult or impossible to answer in practice; they do not suggest that morality depends upon something other than the consequences of our actions and intentions." [My footnote:  in this section, as in a later section as well, he discusses the difficulties presented by "The Trolley Problem" as first expressed and explored by philosopher Philippa Rose Foot, who died October 3, 2010, on her 90th birthday.]

"My reasons for dismissing revealed religion as a source of moral guidance: (1) there are many revealed religions  ... (that) ... offer mutually incompatible doctrines;  (2) the scriptures of many religions .... countenance patently unethical practices like slavery; (3) the [mental] faculty we use to validate religious precepts, judging the Golden Rule to be wise and the murder of apostates to be foolish, is something we bring to scripture;  it does not, therefore, come from scripture; (4) the reasons for believing that any of the world's religions were "revealed" to our ancestors (rather than merely invented by men and women who did not have the benefit of a twenty-first-century education) are either risible [ludicrous] or nonexistent - and the idea that each of these mutually contradictory doctrines is inerrant remains a logical impossibility. Here we can take refuge in Bertrand Russell's famous remark that even if we could be certain that one of the world's religions was perfectly true, given the sheer number of conflicting faiths on offer, every believer should expect damnation purely as a matter of probability."

"What we can do is try, within practical limits, to follow a path that seems likely to maximize both our own well-being and the well-being of others. This is what it means to live wisely and ethically."

" .... human beings tend to make moral decisions on the basis of emotion, justify these decisions with post hoc reasoning, and stick to their guns even when their reasoning demonstrably fails."

"Just as people are often less than rational when claiming to be rational, they can be less than moral when claiming to be moral."

"The truth seems inescapable: I, as the subject of  my experience, cannot know what I will next think or do until a thought or intention arises; and thoughts and intentions are caused by physical events and mental stirrings of which I am not aware.  Many scientists and philosophers realized long ago that free will could not be squared with our growing understanding of the physical world. Am I free to change my mind? Of course not. It can only change me."

"Our sense of free will arises from a failure to appreciate this fact: we do not know what we will intend to do until the intention itself arises. To see this is to realize that you are not the author of your thoughts and actions in the way that people generally suppose. .... most voluntary behavior comes about without explicit planning."

" .... all human beings currently alive appear to have descended from a single population of hunter-gatherers that lived in Africa around 50,000 BCE.  Homo neanderthalensis laid claim to Europe and the Middle  East, and Homo erectus occupied Asia."

"The seventeenth-century philosopher [Baruch] Spinoza thought that merely understanding a statement entails the tacit acceptance of its being true, while disbelief requires a subsequent process of rejection."

" .... those who are more knowledgeable about a subject tend to be acutely aware of the greater expertise of others. This creates a rather unlovely asymmetry in public discourse - one that is generally on display whenever scientists debate religious apologists. For instance, when a scientist speaks with appropriate circumspection about controversies in his fieid, or about the limits of his own understanding, his [religious] opponent will often make wildly unjustified assertions about just which religious doctrines can be inserted into the space provided.  Thus, one often finds people with no scientific training speaking with apparent certainty about the theological implications of quantum mechanics, cosmology, or molecular biology."

" .... political conservatism ... [was found] to be correlated with dogmatism, inflexibility, death anxiety, need for closure, and anticorrelated with openness to experience, cognitive complexity, self-seteem, and social stability. .... a belief system known to be especially beholden to dogmatism, inflexibility, death anxiety and a need  for closure will be less principled, less warranted, and less responsive to reason and evidence than it would otherwise be."

" .... if a person's primary motivation in holdilng a belief is to hew to a positive state of mind - to mitigate feelings of anxiety, embarrassment, or guilt, for instance - this is precisely what we mean by phrases like "wishful thinking" and "self-deception." Such a person will, of necessity, be less responsive to valid chains of evidence and argument that run counter to the beliefs he is seeking to maintain. .... the validity of a belief cannot merely depend on the conviction felt by its adhereents; it rests on the chains of evidence and argument that link it to reality."

"As it turns out, dopamine receptor genes may play a role in religious belief as well. People who have  inhereited the most active form of the D4 receptor are more likely to believe in miracles and to be skeptical of science; the least active forms correlate with "rational materialism."

"Despite the explicit separation of church and state provided for by the U.S. Constitution, the level of religious belief in the United States (and the concomitant significance of religion in American life and political discourse) rivals that of many theocracies." [emphasis added.]

"The poor tend to be more religious than the rich .... And on almost every measure of societal health, the least religious countries are better off than the most religious. ....religious commitment in the United States is highly correlated with racism.  .... as societies become more prosperous, stable, and democratic, they tend to become more secular. .... religious commitment "is superficial enough to be readily abandoned when conditions improve to the required degree." "

" .... several clinical conditions involving the neurotransmitter dopamine - mania, obsessive-compulsive  disorder (OCD), and  schizophrenia - are regularly associated with hperreligiosity.  Clearly, religion is largely a matter of what people teach their children to believe about the nature of reality."

"With respect to our current scientific understanding of the mind, the major religions remain wedded to doctrines that are growing less plausible by the day. As is often the case with religious apology, it is a case of heads, faith wins; tails, reason loses."

"What if mice show greater distress at the suffering of familiar mice than unfamiliar ones? (They do.) What if monkeys will starve themselves to prevent their cage mates from receiving painful shocks? (They will.) What if chimps have a demonstrable sense of fairness when receiving food rewards? (They have.) What if dogs do too? (Ditto.)  Wouldn't these be precisely the sorts of findings one would expect if our morality were the product of evolution? .... religious dogmatism presents an obstacle to scientific reasoning."

"The assumption that the mind is the product of the brain is integral to almost everything neuroscientists do."  [emphasis added.] 

"Imagine how terrifying it would be if great  numbers of smart people became convinced that all efforts to prevent a global financial catastrophe must be either equally valid or equally nonsensical in principle. And yet this is precisely where we stand on the most important questions [about morality] in human life. For nearly a century, the moral relativism of science has given faith-based religion - that great engine of ignorance and bigotry - a nearly uncontested claim to being the only universal framework for moral wisdom."

** End of my synopsis of his book. I hope all readers will take the opportunity to attend Dr. Harris's lecture in Seattle tomorrow, October 20th. **

Saturday, October 16, 2010

CHAPTER SIX: A DIFFICULT REMEMBRANCE FROM MY YOUTH

PRIVACY VIOLATED


I don't remember this incident too well: perhaps it has been too many years since it took place, or perhaps I have tried to block it from conscious memory. Tried, but never succeeded. For while I have never really "thought about It,” I have certainly never forgotten it, either.

Neither have I been successful in understanding it. Why did it happen? What impact has it had on my life? Can I directly attribute any of my future actions to this incident? Many questions; no answers. After forty or more years, no answers.

My childhood and youth spent in Anchorage were nearly idyllic. As a child I loved life there: The snow, the cold, the beautiful "Northern Lights", the warm southern "Chinook" winds in mid-winter, the constant daylight in summer, the constant darkness in winter. This was an unusual locale that fired the childish imagination and gave birth to personal and intellectual freedom. Certainly we children growing up in Anchorage were less
constrained by custom than children growing up in similar sized cities in the "South 48".

Adults in Anchorage - or Alaska in general - were certainly spoilt by the friendly clannishness of our neighbors: It seemed that together we faced hardship in the weather and natural surroundings and as a consequence we were more compassionate with others. Perhaps compassionate is not the right word for this: Locking cars was unheard of; locking your house was only done if you were going away for an extended period of time; you always picked up hitchhikers because they were your neighbors; you never minded hitching a ride because these were your neighbors. The level of trust amongst friends and strangers alike was incredible. And was the topic of conversation by every visitor.

My several trips, as a child, to visit relatives in other states afforded me the opportunity to see what life was supposed to be like in the more "civilized" world. It certainly wasn't like what I was accustomed to in our "frontier" environment. And in my childish innocence I wouldn't have traded our way of living for any of my relatives' lifestyles.

But for me the compassion lost its comfort on a very dark, very cold, snowy winter night when I was eight or nine. I was a Cub Scout whose Den meeting was held at the home of my best friend, Darrell Bergt. The Bergts lived at that time very close to the elementary school perhaps a mile from our house. I walked the streets to and from school daily and knew the route well. In Anchorage in 1950 there were few street lights, so my daily trek to school was done in total darkness in the morning, and in semi-light each afternoon.

Sunrise in the winter happened just before noon, and we children would look forward to the pleasant interruption of our school day by the gradual lightening of the sky which heralded lunch. Sunset would occur before we left school for home in early afternoon.

So for me to attend Den meetings meant that I walked to Darrell's house after dinner and walked home again when the meeting was done. I rarely met anyone else walking the streets on those nights, and although moose frequently entered town and roamed the streets, they never made it to our neighborhood and I never met up with one when walking home from a Den meeting.

This particular night, when walking home, I was perhaps midway between Darrell's house and my own when a car pulled up beside me and a familiar-sounding male voice asked if I'd like a lift home. The night seemed especially cold and although I usually enjoyed the walk home in the snow and darkness I said "Sure" and got in the car.

I remember how very warm it felt; the heater fan was turned on high and was blowing nice hot air up into my face. I scrunched down a little bit to get as close to the heater as possible, so I wasn't watching where we were driving. As I try to recollect this event I cannot picture the face of the driver, but my sense of the moment is that I knew this person and knew that he knew where I lived. So I had no need to pay attention; I just enjoyed the heater.

It wasn't many minutes until he stopped the car, left the engine running, leaned over to me and said "Why don't I unzip your jacket and let the warm air in. You must be very cold." His hands worked the zipper and my overcoat came open. He opened the front of my coat and said, "Are you getting warm now?" One of his hands was on my leg, resting on my trouser.

Then it moved up my leg to my crotch and grabbed at me. I was petrified and sat still, hardly breathing. His own breathing was becoming more audible and I could see nothing but black outside and could hear nothing but his loud breathing. His hand slipped down inside the front of my trousers and touched my penis. I was too scared to move or say anything and didn't know what he was going to do.

Now I could hear him moving something with his other hand; moving something and breathing even more loudly. What was he doing? Why was he breathing so hard: Was he scared too? His hand in my pants was moving and squeezing me and his breathing was more like moaning.

Suddenly it stopped. His hand wasn't moving. His breathing was quiet.

And he put the car in gear and began driving again. It was only minutes, I'm sure, and he stopped the car again and told me to get out: He's taken me as far as he can. I opened the door, got out and ran down the street. He had brought me within several blocks of home and I didn't zip up my coat or anything; I just ran to home. I never told my parents what happened that night; maybe I was afraid I'd get into trouble, I don't know. And I never accepted another ride until I was a teenager. It was not too long after that incident that the Bergts moved to a new house many miles out of town and I quit Cub Scouts.

© 4/2/98 Gene Brown

Friday, October 15, 2010

MANNING THE PHONES: WHAT IT MEANT FOR ME

Many years ago, after first moving to the Pacific Northwest from our home in the San Francisco Bay Area, our family was involved in the campaign for a Rotary friend who was running for a municipal judgeship. His name was Tom Wynn - and he not only won his election, but won succeeding elections until he is now the presiding judge for the Snohomish County Court.

During that first involvement in the campaign process, my wife, Nina, our two teen aged children, Richard and Kristina, and I learned about silk screening yard signs, and canvassing neighborhoods to distribute fliers, and all the other myriad tasks that go into helping a person get elected.

With that background, we then worked on the campaign of a fellow Rotarian's wife's bid for a state senate seat. Again, as a family, we made signs, canvassed neighborhoods talking to people and handing out fliers. And as a family we attended the election night watch at campaign headquarters, to see our candidate lose her first bid for office.

We worked with other Rotarians on this and other projects of 'goodly deeds' - until we discovered that many of these 'good deed' folks were rotten to the core inside, and would sell you out without a second thought if it would further their personal goals.

So we exited the Rotary club, moved from the southern Snohomish County area and continued life without any involvement in the political scene.

Until now.

With those experiences now nearly thirty years past, I have volunteered to man the phones for the re-election of Senator Patty Murray.

First, I attended a rally in Bellevue on Saturday, the second, in which Senator Murray and several other local Democratic candidates spoke, mingled with the crowd and shook hands with the many who were familiar to them as volunteers - and with those of us who were volunteering for the first time.

And there, in the crowd, I bought into the vision that has propelled these men and women to face nearly intolerable scrutiny from the press and from society - a vision of equality in the application of our laws so all people in the state of Washington can have equal access to the benefits of their citizenship here.

With a feeling of rightness that I hadn't felt since those early campaign experiences, I signed up to help man the phones for Senator Murray's re-election.

Yesterday afternoon I drove to a building that was for lease, but was now the temporary headquarters for the Murray and DelBene campaigns in Renton, was given five pages of names - about one hundred in all - and began calling my neighbors. To tell them about the message of hope that the Democratic platform offers its voters, and to encourage them to look past the doom and gloom policies of the opposition, and vote for  continued progress.

When I was finished - it took nearly two full hours to make all the calls - I had a feeling of both exuberance and relief; I had reintegrated myself into the social fabric and had opted to help make a difference in the world.

Manning the phones had a made a real difference; and perhaps most especially in me.

g

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

THIS IS A COPY FROM: ADDICTINGINFO.ORG

You Might be a Republican If..........


By Bruce Linder

You Might be a Republican If..........

1) You believe George W. Bush's redistribution of middle-class tax cuts to the top 1% of tax-payers was good for America, but Obama's plan to return it to the middle class is 'socialism.'

2) You believe stem cells are living human beings, but thousands of Iraqi children are 'expendable collateral damage.'

3) You believe tax cuts for billionaires is a great idea, yet you wonder why the economy has stalled, your job just got outsourced to India, and oil company executives receive $400,000,000.00 retirement packages.

4) You believe the surge worked because the violence in Iraq is back to 2006 levels, which is only horrible, compared to what it was in 2007; intolerable. Besides, Brit Hume said so.

5) You think trial lawyers are harmful to America, yet you support prosecuting some guy in Muncie Indiana who burned his 99¢ American flag that was made in China by forced child labor.

6) You're all for the 'rule of law' when it's applied to Bill Clinton for lying about his infidelity, but not for prosecuting Karl Rove and Scooter Libby for committing treason.

7) You think George W. Bush is actually a really smart guy, but his folksy manner just makes him seem dumber than he really is.

8) You believe that those privileged from birth achieve success all on their own, and that those who are born to poverty and never have opportunities for advancement, got what they deserved.

9) You believe Ronald Reagan was a great president who had complete control of all aspects of government, but the Iran-Contra Affair was an insignificant scandal that went on without his knowledge.

10) You believe Democrats tax and spend, but George W. Bush was a fiscal conservative.

11) You believe Oliver North, who was CONVICTED of perjury, obstruction of justice, destroying evidence and accepting bribes, is a patriot. But John Kerry, who saved a man's life while under enemy fire in Vietnam is a coward.

12) You believe George W. Bush kept us safe from terror, and the failure to prevent the 9/11 attacks were Clinton's fault.

13) You actually believe Fox News is fair & balanced.

14) You still believe Saddam had truckloads of WMDs, and that he somehow managed to sneak them into Syria, right under our noses.

15) You believe Terri Schiavo was sentient all along, and Bill Frist had the ability to diagnose her condition by watching a 5 second video of her sleeping.

16) You're in favor of stronger prison sentences for drug users, yet your favorite radio personality is Rush Limbaugh.

17) You complain about having to press 1 for English, yet you hire undocumented workers to mow your lawn because they're cheaper than hiring the kid next door.

18) Homosexuality is abhorrent to you, except when a Republican senator, the president of the National Association of Evangelicals, and a planted White House journalist get caught having sexual affairs with gay men. Then you suddenly feel sorry for them.

19) The war in Iraq makes perfect sense to you, but any suggestion by Barack Obama that we target al Qaeda specifically is 'dangerous and reckless.'

20) You don't mind that president Bush tortured men who were never charged with a crime, yet you're horrified by the wrath of al Qaeda when they capture one of our guys.

21) You believe the 1/10 of 1% of scientists who claim global warming is a hoax, and reject the 99.9% who say it's real, because Sean Hannity and his friends in the oil industry have convinced you that science is a part of a greater liberal conspiracy.

22) You believe patriotism means you should support your government right or wrong ... unless a Democrat's in power, then it's your patriotic duty to call him a closet Muslim, challenge his birth certificate, expose his sex life and impeach him.

23) You're proud of your party's 'culture of life.' Yet you support the death penalty for minors, you believe 600,000 dead Iraqis is justified because one of them was Saddam Hussein, and you oppose confronting the genocide in Darfur because they don't have oil.

24) You support prayer in school, as long as your kids aren't subjected to Muslim prayers.

25) You think Darwin's theory of evolution is a loony fairy tale, and mankind actually began with two naked teenagers, a magic apple and a talking snake.

26) You think $35 billion spent on health care for children is a waste of taxpayer's money, but $1.7 trillion spent on a catastrophic war that has isolated us from our allies, decimated our economy and made us less safe was money well spent.

27) You believe embargoing communist Cuba is sound foreign policy, but trading with China is just good business.

28) You believe Bill Clinton was an immoral cad, but Newt Gingrich and Henry Hyde were faithful husbands (and Larry Craig just has a wide stance).

29) You fervently defend the Constitution, but when president Bush got caught monitoring 300 million phones without a warrant, politicizing our justice system, hyping evidence for going to war and pardoning a convicted perjurer who just happened to be on his staff, then it's okay, because he was 'protecting America.'

30) You were outraged when a gallon of gasoline went from $1.29 to $1.40 during the two terms of the Clinton presidency, but you didn't seem to mind when prices tripled under George W. Bush, the "oil man."

31) You were furious when Bill Clinton pardoned international commodities trader Marc Rich, who was convicted of tax evasion, but applauded when George W. Bush exonerated Scooter Libby for obstructing justice to protect Dick Cheney from a treason indictment.

32) With no evidence whatsoever, you complained of 'voter fraud,' and demanded that thousands of blacks be scrubbed from voting lists during the 2004 election in Ohio, yet when Rush Limbaugh asked his audience to illegally claim to be Democrats and vote for Hillary Clinton during the Ohio Primary in February to "stir up trouble," a FELONY, you were okay with that.

33) You believe Barack Obama should be held accountable for every sermon that Jeremiah Wright ever gave, but John McCain, who sought the endorsement of anti-Semitic, xenophobic, openly racist and homophobic pastors should be given a pass.

34) You believe Barack Obama is either a secret Muslim, was actually born in Kenya, and his parents forged a fake birth certificate when he was born - just in case he should ever run for president, or that his father's nationality disqualifies his son from being president, all because you read that on the Internet.

35) You believe the 8 consecutive years of prosperity and strong economic growth from 1993 - 2001 was due to the work of Ronald Reagan and George H.W. Bush, but today's recession is all Clinton's and Obama's fault.

36) You laugh at how much better Barack Obama speaks with a TelePrompTer than without one, yet you never mention the fact that even with a TelePrompTer, every time George Bush opened his mouth, gibberish tumbled out.

37) You still believe Barack Obama has somehow succeeded in fooling every government and independent examination with his "obviously Photoshopped" documents. Instead, you rely on Internet gossip, WorldNetDaily and Jerome Corsi as your sources for "truth."

38) Your conservative media spent more air time discussing Michelle Obama touching the queen of England's arm than on the economy, the environment, terrorism and health care combined.

39) You believe that we should get out of Afghanistan because Obama is "nation building," yet for eight straight years of Bush's bumbling incompetence there, you kept mum. Therefore, attacking Iraq makes sense, even though they never threatened us, but finishing off the job of finding Osama bin Laden; the terrorist who killed 3,000 Americans -- Bush's original task -- is a dumb idea.

40) You were furious that Barack Obama admitted in France that Americans have occasionally been "arrogant, dismissive and derisive," but you cheered them on when Bush, Cheney and Rumsfeld were arrogant, dismissive and derisive.

41) You believe that Obama's $3.6 trillion budget is an outrage, but never once complained that George Bush turned Bill Clinton's $300 billion surplus into a $1.3 trillion deficit. And it never once occurred to you that Bush deliberately omitted the Iraq and Afghanistan wars from those statistics, which means Bush's TRUE deficit was $3.1 trillion.

42) You supported Gov. Sarah Palin, partly because you believed she kept a good Christian home. This, despite the fact that her seventeen year old unmarried daughter was knocked up, her son was accused of vandalizing 44 school buses (cutting the brake lines of school buses - HELLO!!?) and was given the choice of going to jail or join the military, and Palin herself was found guilty of abusing the power of her office. But Barack Obama can't possibly be a true Christian, because his father was a Muslim, and his middle name is Hussein. (Besides, he's black, and everybody knows that Jesus was a blond haired blue eyed white man.)

43) You believe the only solution to gun violence is to make sure everybody is armed to the teeth. That way, when some crazy person goes on a killing spree, right-thinking people will take out the killer, and tranquility will prevail throughout the land.

44) You believe the mainstream news anchors are crazy, biased and filled with hate, but Glenn Beck and Sean Hannity are rational, accurate and informative.

45) You defend Rush Limbaugh's right to wish for Obama to fail, and therefore, the failure of our republic, yet you call Democrats the "blame America first crowd."

46) You claim that the economic crisis is the fault of the Democrats, but never mention that it was the Reagan administration that massively deregulated the banking industry in 1982, and it was Phil Gramm - McCain's choice for economic advisor - who completed the task for his pals in the banking industry in 1999.

47) You believe the failure of the US automobile industry is primarily the fault of the unions, and not because management of the three corporations insisted on producing vehicles that nobody wanted. And you're angry with the $28.00 per hour average wage of the work force, but you believe that the multimillion dollar salaries of the men who bankrupted the industry are perfectly reasonable.

48) You believe Barack Obama is a "narcissistic megalomaniac," because you heard Glenn Beck call him that once, but Beck himself is a humble man, concerned only for your welfare (brought to you by Goldline!).

49) You believe anybody who doesn't subscribe to Orly Taitz' birther movement is a RINO, and those who do, are carrying the torch of Reaganism.

50) You think this list is mean-spirited and biased, and even though you privately acknowledge to yourself that it's all true, you believe the Democrats are just as bad. Here's a bulletin: Nobody has ever been this bad.

New Comments Added After the Fact:

Thomas Behnke10/13/2010 11:03:41 PM

You might be a Republican if...

You feel perfectly justified demonizing the entire population of Muslims based on the radical fringe of that religion, while isolating and playing down the psychotic Christians who shoot doctors, bomb abortion clinics, bugger little children, and conspire to turn this country government into the same fascist theocracy in Afghanistan, except this time with the 'right' god.

Meg10/13/2010 9:59:16 PM

You might be a Republican if.............

You think a ball of cells has a right to life but not a woman. Also, if you think only the government should be allowed to control a woman's body and not herself.

L.M.10/13/2010 9:41:52 PM

You might be a Republican if.............

You think you are radical patriot protecting the American way of life, because you support the rights of corporations to control our political system.

Beau Brown10/13/2010 9:34:37 PM

Truth

You might be a Republican if - Sad that it's Truth. Every Democrat needs to vote. We need to deliver the coup de grace to this politically self serving and dying entity.

joe vig10/13/2010 8:47:11 PM

you might be illinformed

Someone wrote, "None of what you posted matters, the republicans will take the house and you have nobody to blame but the democrats!!" That's exactly why Republicans lost both houses! They were profoundly incompetent...just as the democrats are now! The cycle of abuse will always be here because of American Idiots! You'll always vote for a stupid republican or a stupid democrat! I say let those two parties die a slow agonizing death! Oh, wait! They are!!!!!

Pete Haines10/13/2010 8:31:42 PM

"You might be a idiot"

...if you say "You might be a idiot..." instead of "You might be an idiot..."

Jim Black is illiterate10/13/2010 7:30:42 PM

You might be an idiot if you say "you might be a idiot".

Gerrie Rousseau10/13/2010 6:56:40 PM

You might be a Republican...

...if you believe that ancient people rode dinosaurs.

Jim Black10/13/2010 6:37:04 PM

You might be a idiot if...

You think "None of what you posted matters, the republicans will take the house", even after hearing the facts and still support Republicans any way.

Dorita Gordon10/13/2010 5:14:09 PM

You Might Be a Republican If...

You claim to want smaller government and less government interference, but you want a law governing who you can marry.

Damon Musselman10/13/2010 5:13:35 PM

You might be a Republican if...

(51) You praise Reagan as your tax-cutting, anti-spending role model while conveniently forgetting that Reagan RAISED taxes in 1982, 1983,1984, and 1986 while spending more that all the Presidents before him COMBINED.

chuck finan10/13/2010 4:55:52 PM

You Might Be a Republican if.......

Your names is Carl Andrews???

T. Claiborne10/13/2010 4:49:59 PM

You might be if...

If you believe that "we cannot abandon Baghdad..." because its our God-given mission to "liberate Iraq", but its OK to leave the American citizens of New Orleans stranded on their rooftops, let to die in their own waste following hurricane Katrina because "there were a lot of bad people in New Orleans..."

The Christian Left10/13/2010 4:28:43 PM

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Gloria Lynn10/13/2010 4:26:39 PM

You Might Be a Republican if........

You are staunchly in favor of heavy fines for anyone who hires undocumented workers but when it's revealed that you knowingly had undocumented workers on your payroll, you claim that you had no idea and quickly say it's the "blamestream" media's fault.

Gloria Lynn10/13/2010 4:21:15 PM

You Might Be a Republican if........

You think we can pay our doctors with a chicken, that there are be-headings all over the Arizona border, Sharia Law has been put into effect anywhere within the United States borders and that scientists have transplanted human brains into mice.

Carl Andrews10/13/2010 4:20:59 PM

democrats

None of what you posted matters, the republicans will take the house and you have nobody to blame but the democrats!!

Gloria Lynn10/13/2010 4:18:22 PM

You Might Be a Republican if........

You keep calling everyone who had their job outsourced by the policies of the last administration of being lazy bums who should just go get a job and stop stealing your tax dollars.

Gloria Lynn10/13/2010 4:16:10 PM

You Might Be a Republican if........

If you claim you want smaller government with less power but support repealing the 17th Amendment which would give the government the power to hand pick Senators and take the right of we the people from voting for the candidate of our choice

Ballard Mer Ross10/13/2010 4:08:26 PM

Wow

After about the 15th point, it just becomes so clear there isn't a cure for this disease they call Republitosis, sad really, it affects a lot of people, wish I could help them, but you know you can't help someone that refuses treatment.

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I just had to copy this to my blog. It is the essence of the Republican party, the Republican mindset, the Republican platform today, I'm sorry to say.

And I, for one, am not ready to return this country to the failed policies of the GOP in this election, nor the next, nor the next.

g

CHANGES ARE IN THE WIND!!

I know - you think the beautiful Mercedes CL (Lorinser Edition) that fronts this blog is lovely enough as is; no changes needed.

Ah, but you underestimate the need for constant improvement of one's ride.

Over the next week or so, both visible and not visible modifications will take place; a new photo will be posted in place of the current one; the transformation will be done ..... for NOW!

These modifications, tweaks, upgrades and whatevers, will allow it to take me farther, faster, funner and fancier than it does today.

So: stay tuned!

Thanks,

g